iced coffee

so i think i'm addicted to iced coffee. it is so good though i'm just not sure if i can stop lol. i'm drinking a cinnaman latte right now, it is so good!!!! i love iced coffee :)

playing the field

so i think i have like 3 different people or more maybe to kinda get to know and possibly date, which is cool but i have no idea what i'm doing. i have never played the field before and to be honest i've only technically dated one person. i'm not even sure how that happened. i don't know what i'm doing and i feel like i'm really boring. i'm so bad at this stuff. i don't know what is cute and what is like over the top. i don't want to freak people out but i want people to know that i care. idk...i just wish i knew what to do!!! idk i just kinda hope that everything will work out idk...i hate being single and looking for someone its too hard :( awe!!!!!!

boys drive me crazy, but ex girlfriends are worse

so i have decided that i like this boy, well his ex happens to be one of my friends. i know that under some weird girl code i'm not supposed to like him or even think about dating him but honestly our friendship doesn't mean that much to me. i really like him and she is the one who dumped him and humiliated him. i mean he doesn't even want to talk to her anymore. i must say that ya the girl code makes sense for some situations but not for every situation. if i really never dated anyone this freind dated there would practically be no one left. ok ok so that is a little dramatic but its kinda true. idk...all i have to say is that if he likes me back and this ends up going somewhere. i'm going to take it there and if she doesn't want to be my friend anymore because of it then so be it

p.s. dandelion if you were the girl in question i would never do something like this cause well i love you and were sisters!

and so the duck fell in love with the dandelion!

hey hey so i have the bestest friend anyone could ask for! she loves me no matter what and honestly i think we were meant to be sisters, she is uber great!! no matter what we are doing we have the greatest time and i can totally be myself when i'm around her! i know for sure that we will be friends forever...she will be the aunt and godmother to my children! i love her so much and she will definitely be my maid of honor. i love her to death and well i'm not super great with words but i hope she knows just how much i love her and appreciate her.
forever my concert buddy, roomate, friend, and sister!
best friends forever!

thoroughly confused!

prom was last week and i was supposed to go with the obvious person, but then there were some complications. i had told him that i might not take him anymore and then like maybe 4 days later i asked him to go with me again. he said he would love to go with me but that he might be busy. i just figured he had to work or something. a couple days later i found out at school via the grape vine that he was actually taking this other girl, the same girl he left me for. i was so angry and i felt so betrayed. i confronted him about it and he told me that he wasn't going to tell me and just try to avoid me at prom thinking that maybe i wouldn't find out. to me this sounded like the dumbest thing ever but apparently he doesn't think very well even though he dwells on issues and thinks way too much into them. i told him that if he was going to prom with anyone it should be me and that i didn't know if we could be friends anymore. the only thing is that i don't know if i was out of line. i know we have a lot of history and there was no doubt that i was definitely hurt but we are not going out and i technically do not have claim on him. i just do not know if this is a big enough deal to end our friendship. i'm just so confused but everyone else thinks that i should never talk to him again but i don't know if i can do that.

What Is The Answer?

Forever Always

well he came home and everything was ok but there was something that just wasn't right. We discussed it and decided that a relationship really wasn't the best thing for either of us right now so we broke up but we are still best friends. i think that right now both of us just need a friend and not the expectations and status of a relationship. i don't regret saying yes to him the day he left though because i could never regret anything that helped us get closer. We still love eachother and we will forever and always, but its nice to know that i have my best friend back for good. For a while i was afraid i was going to lose him. everyone worried when they found out that we broke up but to be honest i am totally fine with it. i really think it is the best thing for now. i feel like it gives us a chance to catch up and learn about eachothers lives these past 8 months and really rebuild our relationship because i still feel like it is a little broken. i know though that it will be whole again soon, i can't wait for that day.